- Re Self Discovery -
A week has passed after the events. And I find myself wondering what I am looking for. I always thought I knew what I wanted in life, but the events have taught me a new lesson.
Life has suddenly turned around and laughed at me right in the face.
Why do I want to hear, think about & speak of things repeatedly, when they are actually of NO value at all. If you are thinking this post is about love, you are wrong. Love causes an heartache, but never confusion, or unsettlement within the depths of my heart. Or at least this is what I choose to believe.
It is about me, who I want to become. The attention that I crave and need. Just shoot me in the head, someone. This cannot continue but I know I would not stop it, if things took a second turn. Fuck the no strings attached logic. OMG, I just talk about it like I could so do it. But, I know I am failing.
Time may heal everything, but I am not even hurt. I just want to be in control, feeling happy. And trust me, when time passes, I can tell you the result may be the same. I do hope the rambling, though seemingly senseless, helps me to get past these few months at least.
And, if I find an answer, trust me, I will share with you guys. Till then, wish me luck!
