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About Me

I am Isabel. Welcome to my blog. This place is a collection of my experiences.

Born in Sgp in Oct 1986.

Loves:
- Life
- My family
- P3
- Guy
- Crazy Elephant, Clarke Quay & Erdinger
- Sexy scents (If you smell sexy, stay away, I might just eat you up!)
- Good lookers (They always make my day *wink*)
- Chilling out with JCW
- Dresses (2008 new craze for me!)
- Fags
- YOUTUBE et WMM
- ADDIDAS, COACH, CHANEL et GUCCI

Hates:
- Princesses (Big bullies when I am nice to you!)
- Control Freaks (It is my life, not yours, back off!)
- Racist pigs (Love the world because we are different. *winks*)
- Being bored
- Being broke


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Thursday, May 31, 2007 8:19 PM



- FUCK -

Can't imagine I have to get ready for the stupid big talk next week. Now the rest of P3 will try to justify their reasons for questioning everything I do?

Before I go for the talk, maybe I ought to re-cap what happened?

- Sat or Sun
1 of the days, P3 meets. Supposed to go for dinner. Then Leo wants to cut his hair (FOC) and Kar meets the Polar people. I feel left out. I showed black face (when we went into the gift shop, after the Polar gathering) When we were outside smoking, P3 start to question about me saying want to quit. What is the problem? Can't chill is it?

-Fri (18.05)
Leo passes his CPTC. Last minute, P3 want to meet.I can't. Meeting JCW. Kar tries to irritate me on msn when I went online after I got home.
It goes something like this:
K: "Leo says you were busy?"
ME: "I didn't say I was busy, just have something on"
K: "So what were you doing"
ME: " Dinner with colleagues"
K: "Colleagues? But you see them everyday"
I started to explain my self. Then I thought, fuck leh, she is trying to create problems, why must I explain myself? Can't be bothered anymore, so just answer 1 word answers.

- Sat (19.05)
Orchard & PS
(Supposed to watch 200 Pound Beauty, GV at PS not screening any longer) - P3 met up and walked a bit in Orchard. Things were fine, we laughed, and talked about life. I enjoyed myself that night!

- Sun (20.05)
Leo and me met up - wanted to catch the movie in Cathay Orchard this time, but sold out! We walked a bit in Orchard. At about 9 plus, almost 10, we went to pick Kar up from work at J8. Took bus home, talked about Apit (her problem with b.f)

- Sat (26.05)
P3 met up at CP. Leo got pissed at me for playing PSP when we all got together. (Playing halfway, can't save also, have to complete the battle first) Anyway, in the end, just switched off the set and PSP saved some data temporary) Leo never liked my PSP in the first place.

- Sun (27.05)
Ka sms us. Wanted to meet on Fri, said I would confirm with her again.

- Mon (28.05)
Understood from MSN Leo can't meet on Fri. Kar sms to said forget abt Friday. Sensed a bit wrong here.
I sms abt Thurs meetup. Leo replied can't, Kar replied "Thanks maybe next time"
So I sms them when they would be free to meet up (this was done during my Korean dinner, JCW's birthday celebration)

- Tues (29.05)
Leo sms in the morning Sat, he can. So I replied to two people (him & Ka), that I can, how about Ka. Then it happened. She sms that she meeting Polar people, and would love for me and Leo to come, only afraid that "I would show black face, if I felt left out"
Super pissed. Forward her sms to Leo. He replies why not mini-meet her and talk about it. But still pissed. Fuck la, don't try to be nice first then be bad.
Sms Kar about her sms sending the wrong vibes.
She replied about 1plus am that it didn't mean to send wrong vibes, but since I thought so, let it be.

- Wed (30.05)
Kar sms about meeting as she ended work at 830pm that day. But I have an appointment, can't meet up. Replied to her. She replies "Oh yes, it is ladies night, I forgot"
In the evening, while I was having sushi, Leo smses. Questions why I can't meet. Was thinking, another 1 on my tail. Why must I explain again. Choose to ignore.

- Thurs (TODAY 31.05)
Went on msn. Saw Leo's nick "You must been too drunk to interpret my sms" Wah. His sms was at 8 plus pm, I was eating sushi. (No sake ok!) Drunk, my foot.
So he talks to me online and told me about meeting next week, when we talk about the important issues.

Freaking sian. Don't want to face this. But I must be prepared. Otherwise, will get shot till I die by this 2 people.


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- ZOUK -

So yesterday, F&E people supposed to go Zouk. Yuki didn't come to work, Mas had classes, Ler went home first. Therefore, we all planned to meet at 10pm or so at Zouk.

I was expecting dinner with them actually, then we go together. But now, they all had evening plans, I was alone!

Waha. Luckily, saw Jerry from the Asia department, he was going for dinner with Cin & Martin, so I leeched along. Hee. I was nice enough though, asked them whether they want to come to Zouk with me later, Cin & Mar say ok (Jerry could not, bleahx)

We had a very good dinner (sushi!). Talked a lot, laughed a lot! After that, we took a cab to Zouk.

OMG!

The crowd was freaking scary. There were people who started walking the opposite direction and I knew that this meant slow queues, and worse still, sure no place to dance!

Haha. So called Ler, told her the situation, so she said she might be going to Club Street, to a Thai disco! Lol. Ok, not our taste, so we decided to go Clarke Quay.

CLINIC!

Urgh, no nurses, they all changed their uniform to look not like nurses (actually maybe they just didn't wear the cute hats) ! In the beginning, the place played Retro. Ok, not too bad. Mar & Cin can appreciate. After that, the music got a bit better. =)

Mas sms me abt 11pm. This woman so funny, in the end, she went St James, then 1 Nite Stand. I was thinking it must have not been easy to get a cab and that she probably got a ride (I was right, her friend drove)

Then Mar's friend came. His name is Daryl and he worked in CB before. OMG, quite nice looking. Best is when he tried to prevent me from getting bumped by people in the club with his hand on my waist. AHh. Hee. No worries, nothing sexual at ALL.

In the end, F&E outing became something like individual outing. 3 people at 3 different places (ok, 4 places, considering Mas went to 2 places!)

Really a twist of fate. Got to know people like Martin better. Cin & I have history together (>.-)

Bleahx. But spent quite a bit last night.

Sushi - $20
Entrance - $15
Drinks - $11
Fags - $12.50
Cab - $9
Total - $67.5

I only withdrew $60 - I spent more than I withdrew!

Haha. Good fun there. Really got to stretch my muscles a bit.

*Winks*



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Wednesday, May 30, 2007 5:05 PM


- HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY JCW -
Hope you have a great day!




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** Travel Fair with JCW **



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:: Crazy Elephant ::



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- P3 -

Feeling anti-social. Do not want to meet P3. Feeling so good that I rejected meeting them. (Maybe it is K7 only, don't know what is wrong with her. Nowadays feel like she is purposely trying to irritate me) Wahaha. Probably I am a bit sadistic too.

Later going with F&E people to Zuok. But since the person who invited not here at work today, must see who I can "leech" on. Hee. If can't leech on, maybe don't go.

So sleepy today. But had a super good time at Sentosa with JCW yesterday. Was at Cafe Del Mar and soaked a bit in the sea. Had beer, fags. Wow, this is called enjoying life! Even saw this cute guy on the beach. (>.<)

JCW wanted to tan, but don't know why I ended up looking so much darker than her. (When the sun appeared, I hid in the sea) She says even sea water can turn me dark. Bleahx.

I so want to post pictures on the blog.

Yippy.


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Sunday, May 27, 2007 10:57 PM





What I would kill to protect - My ERDINGER
Fell in love with it, now Heineken seems far.
My own taste - Maybe you may not like it!


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- CLUBBING ALONE PART 1 -


Here it goes. I never thought someone could go club alone, because I always thought that it was sad to have to do so. Going out for a night out alone somehow places the person in a vulnerable position or to put it bluntly, makes the person look desperate and anti-social. (why no friends?) However, I shocked myself recently (& some other people) by deciding why not, just go and try it for once.

:: Sunday - May 6th ::

Patrick's wedding. Lovely dinner, had lots of good food, good conversation with the Chan family (H.M & Dawn). After it ended, everyone seemed to disappear. Betty was gone with Joe G, Pat, I think she took a ride from someone too. Anyway, the hotel area suddenly became very empty, could not see anyone I knew.

I decided to take a cab home, so waited in line at the stairs area of Orchard hotel. There were two women beside me waiting too. The last one in line, I recognised as the photographer of that event. Started talking to her (tried to be friendly), and we made small talk.

I was feeling like I didn't want to go home so soon, and maybe Fate heard me. The woman behind me started to ask me about Boat Quay and whether it was safe for a woman to go alone. She had that Japanese accent, then again it may have been Korean, I can't really tell them apart anyway.

So I started acting like a guide (occupational hazard), told her Clarke Quay was better in choice as Boat Quay was filled more with seafood restaurants. Then again it was a Sunday night, it may not be happening at all at either of these places.

Then, I OFFERED to go with her if she wanted.

Haha. Impulsive nature of mine again. I guessed she was a bit freaked out and she said she was going there tomorrow with her friends. Probably, she was thinking I was trying to hit on her or something (lol. lesbianism). Hmm, then I was thinking why ask me about going alone there in the first place?

Well, since she did not take up the offer, I told myself I could go there if I wanted. And I knew a superb place which I always felt so at home when I was there with friends. Though the situation was a bit different then (being alone now),I somehow felt I could still survive there.

So I went to CRAZY ELEPHANT.

The whole stretch of Clarke Quay was so quiet. But when I reached the end, I knew I made the right choice! The noise from CE filled my soul and I know I was ready to rock & roll!

Well, actually this place is a sit down, chill out place, really no dance floor or anything. So in my dress (which I wore to the wedding), I spoke to the waitress and got a seat which had a good view of the stage. It was jamming night and different people were up to perform good ol' rock & rock.

It was weird at first but after that I sort of settled down. Good thing when I have a drink and many sticks with me. Hoho. Perfect.

I met this guy from Canada, nice gentleman (forgot his name!) as we were sharing the table. Heard he performs there too, but never got to see him perform that night with his guitar. Anyway, saw John, spoke to him when he came over to speak with that guy.

After a while, I was alone again because the Canadian went out for some fresh air (I suspect it must have been the fags that got to him).

And then this was when my nightmare began.


A group of Chinese guys came in and sat at the table in front left of mine. One of them I think was getting a bit too high and started to come talk to me. At first he was just asking about where the toilet was, then he asked whether I wanted to be his friend.

Really, I was in no mood at that time. I have to admit R was an issue at that point of time too. So I said no. But that guy just didn't want to leave. He moved right to my table with his beer. I was trying to be as gentle as possible, even allowing him to take 1 of my sticks. I can't remember how long it lasted but I was glad when he stood up to leave (because his friends were asking him to go with them)

Obviously, I was wrong when I thought it had ended.

In slow motion, I watched as the glass of beer he had brought over to my table, fell onto the floor when his hand hit it. Goodness, I thought the glass would break (actually, I WANTED it to break, was waiting), but it didn't.

Kudos to Crazy Elephant for having un-breakable glasses.


I could not be bothered to pick up the glass (though unbroken but I was too lazy to move from the high chair, with my flair dress and all). Anyway, this ang-moh came and picked it up and put it on another table. Then he smiled at me.

I smiled too. But really, it was only because I was so glad it was not my ERDINGER that fell over. I would kill to protect my darling ERDINGER.

Haha. Anyway, the jamming ended about 1215hrs and I knew it was time to go home, because Juke Box time meant soft lovely music and many people talking around me. Being alone then would suck because nothing was there to entertain, and definately, I did not want to send the wrong signal to wrong people (think what happened like 10 mins ago - hint *CHINESE). Too weird to sit and drink alone.

Went to John again (he was at the stage keeping some stuff) and said goodbye. He shook my hand & I felt so business-like.

Lovely. John is so gentleman too.

Went home, happy I had a first time experience in going out alone. Haha.

Part 2 the next time.


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- Spectral Souls -





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- INCENTIVES -

Urghh. So it is finalised. LH incentive scheme will change and it has been back dated to April 2007.

Meaning if they make the scheme fully effective, I may lose all the $ I have earned in the month of April, which is a lot! Fuck la. How?

I am super broke and need to spend so much for daily life, such as my piano fees, my expenses and enjoyment. Eek, maybe I should cut back on the enjoyment factor like fags, alcohol & friends.

So sad. Lucky got jcw with me in F&E, to make the saddness go away. Anyway, it is going to be her 21st soon!

YIPEE. So excited for her but pity her because she has to spend so much $$ on her birthday. Hee, we are going to Sentosa on Tuesday (hopefully).

JCW - Be HAPPY because it is YOUR birthday! MUACKS!


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Wednesday, May 23, 2007 6:12 AM



- RAIN RAIN -

Rainy day.

Missed the sun.

As I stood by the traffic junction, I thought I was saved by the big bright red umbrella.

However the raindrops just wet my ankles as I stood there. Why oh why?

Feeling so drama today. I must be nuts


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Thursday, May 17, 2007 5:35 AM



- FREE & EASY -

I am transferred to F&E for a period of 2 months. It seems exciting, to be able to learn new things. In Feb and Mar, I was at Ops, now here. 2007 is super eventful!

I kinda know LH counter people don't really like me. Most times, I try not to think about it. Yet, the questions remains.
WHY?

Maybe I am not good at talking and making people happy? Maybe I ka kiang all the time. Essentially, I know what I am doing is just striving for a stable income, opportunities and doing my best for this company. Is that a wrong thing?

Most people may blame a company and say things like CB is so f****** up, why don't you leave? For me, it is really not CB's fault. For 42 years, the family worked hard for their company. Why place the blame on this innocent company. Who do I blame? I blame the colleagues who stir things up, those who are not contented enough, those who just want to be king or boss.

Aiyo, think I should listen to JCW and don't care about these people anymore.
Aja aja fighting!

(>.<) (!_!)


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Tuesday, May 15, 2007 5:12 AM



- SPECIAL DAY -

My daddy's birthday. It is a sad thing that he is not here with me in Singapore, but I still hope that he is enjoying this special day!

- This morning, I woke up feeling light. Jcw and K7 finally made me see light and I think I can move on, putting memories of R away. I don't want to be a fool no more. And the game was becoming fucking tiring.

Anyway, I am so happy today. Lalala.




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Sunday, May 06, 2007 12:53 PM



- EMY -

Haha. Today, I decided to title this post after Emy. It has been a long time since I thought about him. To be exact, he was this part of my life about 4 years ago.

It was a rollercoaster then, my first serious guy and I put a lot of time, hope and smses on him. When it was over, I was so depressed. P3 were away for that period of time, and so I didn't have anyone to turn to.

I remember the way he treated me. Like shit. Yet, I kept staying at the same spot. Positive throughout the whole journey. Just holding on to the whole relationship, keeping faith. When he pushed me away, I went back like a fool. I thought all he needed was support from someone because he was going through a tough patch in life.

Support, my ass.

He was no longer interested, but probably too fucking lazy to admit it. Me, too lost in my own world of positivity, that I don't see the truth.

2007. Why do I think about him now? I know the answer. Because that fucked up, frustrated feeling has come back.

The feeling is head scratching, hair pulling, feel like shouting at the top of my voice. WHY? Because of stupid R!

Ok, so now JCW knows what I am talking about. The chemistry was sizzling, and it was so comfortable talking to him. We had the same common topics, the same laughter, same ideas. I just wanted to treat him like a friend.

But he was so sweet la. His smses and the attention I got was like sugar rush! I could catch myself smiling at times after reading his sms. OMG.

Now after 2 weeks (yeah only 2 weeks), I realised I just got addicted to R. He is like a puppy that I want to care for, especially when he has been so hurt by her, blah blah. For all you know, he was probably just lying about everything.

Today, when I woke up. I suddenly remembered Emy and how I gained closure from the torture he gave. My method was simple, I was sitting after work at RV Plaza, and I decided this shall be the end of it. So I sms him, good bye forever and stopped thinking about him since then.

With R, I can't use this method because there is nothing between us. AHh. Ok, got to cope with it by changing my attitude I guess.


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I don't know why. I am so fascinated by this place. Taken on 26th of Apr 2007.

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- LAUGH -

Do it so that all the stress, the unhappiness, the addictions, the tiring infatuations go away.

It is a lovely Saturday and I plan to make it good. A day worth smiling at, with laughter accompanying.

=)


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Thursday, May 03, 2007 5:23 AM



-EGO BOOSTER -

You know, about a couple of years ago, when I was still in school and debates, people used to call Izzy an ego-booster.

Why?

Because when you were down or feeling bad about yourself, just go to her. Izzy always knew how to make someone feel better. But not only that, she made you feel better than just better. Your ego would be boosted and your confidence level would shoot up.

Now, as I saw it in the past, it was not wrong to be nice. But maybe I spoilt the lives of some people? Making them so pig-headed? So much of looking at the positive side of people, that I forget there is a negative side to their lives? Because of me, they also start to forget they are actually normal humans, and in many ways not perfect at all.

Now, when I am in a questioning mood, I ask, why am I like that? I have to stop being so nice at times, because it is not worth at all.

Those who need nice people around, probably can't even cope with real life.

Let me be who I should be. Instead of going all the way to help, let me learn how to say no, even to those I care about. Then I can really see whether these people are my friends, because they care & love me, or they just need to feel good about themselves.

Most importantly, I want to live for myself, and not them.


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Wednesday, May 02, 2007 5:28 PM



- NEW LESSON IN LIFE -

Suddenly, I learnt another new thing today. Expectations cannot be there when you are in a situation like me. If you cannot provide a commitment to someone, don't expect it. I guess it is better to stick to this rule, so I don't get too hurt.

Don't look forward to something because you know it will never happen. And face reality.


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- THE LONGEST WORD IN THE WORLD -

Supercaligfraglisticexpialidocious

Haha. Started to listen to this song from Mary Poppins, after Taner put it as his nick!


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Tuesday, May 01, 2007 3:00 PM


OK. May 2007 Resolution - To save $

So gotta stop spending!


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