- HEART -
It has been almost 1 week. I am starting to analyse about what has happened.
Maybe I am really stupid. I have got someone who loves me a lot but I chose another. But you have to understand, it is not just about choice. It is about the way my heart feels. M is not the main reason on why this has happened. In actual fact, M is just 1 of the stops I have taken along the way. R is 1 stop, SP is another stop too.
I never ever actually realised that there was a problem, because everything was so comfortable in the relationship. It has become a habit, a routine. And only recently, I questioned whether there was still love. I was thinking, if there was still love, why did I make stops along the way or why I got so distracted easily.
JCW probably would say that it is because I love playing. But I know the truth. If I was seriously in love, playing would not be something that was happening rather frequently.
I had (have) to be fair to K, because it would suck to break-up if we got to the marriage stage (which would probably hurt so much more) Am I being fair? Maybe, maybe not. What I know is that lying is not going to make things easier.
Love is a process. You get so many kinds of emotions along the way. I am bracing myself, for whatever is coming. Heartbreak or not, I will stay happy.
